Linda Hassan

Salam Aidil Adha untuk semua umat Islam di seluruh dunia. Entah kali berapa raya aidil adha aku sambut di KL. Tapi inilah kali pertama aku kena kerja pada hari raya. Tak apalah itu pun kerja di sebelah petang. Sempat jugalah beraya ngan keluarga dan sediakan juadah apa yang patut. Anak-anak tetap rasa kemeriahan cuma aku terasa rindu sangat kat kampung. Tapi sedey la..naik bas tengok aku sorang jer yang melayu nyer... Dah janji dengan geng kat opis nak bawa makanan. Bawa aper2 yang patut. Aku bawa daging masak kurma sarawak. Diana bawa macam2 ada nasi impit, kuah kacang, lodeh, ayam masak merah, beras untuk kami masak makan petang. Cik lee lak bawa nasi minyak, rendang ayam, kurma daging...Wah meriah....la...Nurul lak bawa ketupat palas ngan kari ayam kampung.... Za bawa bahulu gulung ...sungguh seronok raya di opis...walaupun tak ramai yang kerja tapi ada jugalah org... Apa lagi lepas sembahyang maghrib kami bersidang kat pantry seperti biasa. Belasah ler...itu yang seronok....tapi s...

Argh! Bila kerja dah habis....mula la nak mentenet, itu pun dalam jangka waktu yang terhad sebelum time pulang. Lain benar kerja waktu malam, sekian lama kerja waktu siang tetiba tukar waktu. Sebenarnya menyeronokkan. Opis pun tak ramai orang cuma tinggal kami saja. Sekali bersidang kat pantry, cam nak pecah floor berita harian. Cerita kaum ibu, hal anak2 hinggalah soal kuih-kuih lama. Cerita pasal kuih lama, teringat kuih buatan tok. Sedap dan tahan lama. Teringat kuih bahulu, kuih bakar, peneram, macam2 lagi la kuih lama yang langsung dah tak ingat. Bila fikir balik memang rugi sangat2 sebab tak belajar buat kuih lama2 ni. Ingat lagi tiap kali nak raya, tok mesti buat kuih lama2. Tepung dikisar sendiri, disangrai dan baru dibuat kuih. Tu yang tahan lama. Paling suka kuih putu kacang. Memang sedap sangat. Kalau tengok ramuan memang tak banyak tapi nak buat dia tu yang cerewet. Sampai sekarang aku tetap cari kuih putu kacang. Tapi tak seenak org dulu-dulu buat. Aku rindu sekali saat it...

Bulan... Cahayamu mempesonakan aku, Terangmu menyuluh jiwaku yang kosong, Aku mahu berada bersamamu....

Mulut ini terlalu pedih untuk berkata, Mata ini terlalu sakit untuk melihat, Jiwa ini terlalu lara untuk memendam duka...

If I were U, I won't say much, I would embrace my life so hard, I won't let him touch my heart again and again, If I were U, I would forget the past, I would let the past slip away, I would rather cry today then tomorrow, If I were U, I would stay away, I would fly away, I would flirt around, I would drift away, I would laugh aloud, Even I know is hard to forget the past, Even I know is easy for others to say, Just forget the past, Walk ahead with proud, For others will say... How wonderful she is... Coz she look so damn good....

Kala hati berselirat resah, Antara kasih dan amarah Antara benci dan rindu, Jiwa makin mendesah, Kala bibir, hati tidak sepayung, Kasih yang dijunjung, Cinta yang disanjung, Gugur setitis demi setitis, Kala mata tidak lagi merona kasih, Bibir tidak lagi menguntum senyum, Hati tidak lagi berdebar cinta, Apakah itu tandanya cinta dihati mula melusuh? Benarkah?

Where am I? Am I lost? Do I know you? Answer me! Where am I? Why are you here with me? Do I know you? Answer me! Where am I? I lost my mind! Do I know you? Answer me!

My...my....what a splendid! Football fever attack our office... Our department guess what country we support? Brazil you! Don't be jealous. Everywhere here n there in all department we celebrate the every 4 years event whereby the whole world is celebrating too. Ben.... your place is supporting Spain... Really nice set up.......your lady mascot look drop dead gorgeous....working so hard your brother A....hehe.....alwiz wearing pink shirt. But we ladies have to bear with the shouting from the guys in the office. What to do..they conquer the tv...and we only listen, sometimes got shocked with their shouting. And now they have this blowing thing....my...my....so happening....

Kenapa rasa itu semakin hilang? Pergi bersama angin waktu, Aku tidak bisa menyimpannya lagi, Aku tidak mampu menahannya lagi, Aku takut getar jiwa ini kian menyusut, Hilang bersama kabut malam.....

Ari ni page aku siap awal..ye..ye..ye....kul 9 lebih dah siap....walaupun ofis gegak gempita dengan suara penyokong pasukan badminton malaysia...macam2 bunyi ada.. Aduss! kita kalah wei....amacam....ni...aku tak sanggup nak tengok...sakit peyut...tension..semua ada... Aku nak minum...lapor la pula...sementara nak tunggu time balik..moh kita lepak dalam pantry ...persidangan meja bulat.....

I'm reaching 41 now....what a life....I never thot what will i be when I'm reaching 40. Alhamdulillah, Allah Maha Besar, HE gave me a lot eventhough I have to suffer but HE always there for me...I pray that I will be forever a humble slave to Allah, will alwiz appreciate what I earn from this life. I'm blessed with 6 kids. That I never thot that I will have a big family like this. Never ever...I'm happily married eventhough I've been tru the hardship period of our marriage but we managed to overcome it...and now I'm hoping that I'll be a good mother and wife to my family...

Selasa, 13 April aku ke sini semula. Kembali menjadi kelompok warga kerja NSTP setelah meninggalkan hampir 10 tahun. Terlalu lama. Segan pun ada malu pun ada. Tapi Alhamdulillah masih ada yang kenal. Ada wajah2 lama yang ceria menyapa dan aku tersipu2 malu. Hadir semula dalam usia mencecah 41 tahun. Menukar kerjaya dari wartawan menjadi penyunting. Hahaha.... dlm hati takut bagai nak rak...biasa dulu dok tekan keyboard wat story tapi hari ini aku datang sebagai penyunting dan juga kena wat page.....kecut gak... Pada mulanya aku agak janggal nak guna sistem tera ni... tapi sebenarnya kalu kita dah faham step dan command yang digunakan, InsyaAllah akan menjadi mudah. Dan waktu kerja aku juga sudah berubah termasuklah rutin harian dan juga off day aku yang sudah tidak sama macam dulu.. Huhu...sedey ka? Nak kata sedey tu tak la..tapi jiwa jadi haru biru sekejap sebab nak tune time working hours dari jam 4 petang sampai 12 malam....Bila dah beberapa hari di sini, aku mula senang. Urusan a...

"It's raining out there!," said the lady in pink dress with sad eyes. "Why! there's nothing wrong with the rain right?" said the lady in red dress. "It's bother me. I feel so sad. I feel so lonely. I feel so hurt!" cried the lady in pink dress. "It break my heart. Like a tear drops falling from my eyes," said the lady in pink dress again with a teary voice. "Don't cry my friend. Don't cry. Let it be. Let it go. Let rain wash it all," said the lady in red dress. "Get up! It's time for you to move on. Don't look back even you have to look back. But never look back for as it may hurt you again. Wake up my friend," said the lady in red dress again and again. As the lady in pink dress sulking in deep hurt, wanting for more from the man he could not claim as her's. Wishing he will see her in different way, indeed with love in his eyes. Indeed with gracious in his tones for she never ask for more. On...

There's a hero if you look inside your heart You don't have to be afraid of what you are There's an answer if you reach into your soul And the sorrow that you know will melt away And then a hero comes along With the strength to carry on And you cast your fears aside And you know you can survive So when you feel like hope is gone Look inside you and be strong And then you'll finally see the truth That a hero lies in you It's a long road when you face the world alone No one reaches out a hand for you to hold You can find love if you search within your self And the empitiness you felt will disappear Lord knows dreams are hard to follow But don't let anyone tear them away Hold on, there will be tomorrow In time you'll find the way

Aku bertanya pada diriku... Kapan lagi akan ku simpan cerita lama Dalam kamar hati ku ini, Akukah yang terlalu melankolik, Atau terlalu sakit untuk kulenyapkan semua itu dari rongga hati ini. Mahu ku toleh saja ke belakang, Tapi terasa ada tangan yang memegang kepalaku, Bisiknya... jangan dipaling kepala mu, Tiada lagi yang perlu dikenang, Biarkan sahaja cerita itu mati, Biarkan sahaja jiwanya kacau, Biarkan sahaja jiwanya meronta, Biarkan sahaja semua itu... Biarkan sahaja dia meraung... Biarkan sahaja gema hatinya menyongsang angin senja Biarkan sahaja..... Matikan sahaja, noktahkan sahaja cerita semalam, Biar jiwa mu tenteram, Biar mati mu dalam keredhaan-NYA .

Entah kenapa malam ini aku terasa ingin benar bermanja dengan blog aku. Sukar sekali aku lepaskannya. Mungkin rindu sekali aku kerana lama tidak mencoret rasa hati di dalamnya. Hanya pagi tadi sempat aku titipkan satu dua lirik yang paling aku suka. Bibir ku masih menguntum senyum. Waktu sudah menjengah dinihari tapi hati terasa rindu pada teman2 lama. Lalu ku singgah di laman blog membaca cerita terkini masing-masing. Benar masa tidak dapat diputar kembali. Andai masa bisa diputar mahu sahaja aku dakap saat-saat manis bersama kalian dalam selimut waktu. Biar lemas dalam dakapan waktu itu asalkan bahagia tetap bersama kita..... Luv u ollss....

Another favourite song.... If only you could see the tears in the world you left behind If only you could heal my heart just one more time Even when I close my eyes There's an image of your face And once again I come I'll relise You're a loss I can't replace Soledad It's a keeping for the lonely Since the day that you were gone Why did you leave me Soledad In my heart you were the only And your memory live on Why did you leave me Soledad Walking down the streets of nothingville Where our love was young and free Can't believe just what an empty place It has come to be I would give my life away If it could only be the same Cause I can't still the voice inside of me That is calling out your name Soledad It's a keeping for the lonely Since the day that you were gone Why did you leave me Soledad In my heart you were the only And your memory live on Why did you leave me Soledad Time will never change the things you tols me After all we're meant to be love ...

As I look into your eyes I see all the reasons why My life’s worth a thousand skies You’re the simplest love I’ve known And the purest one I’ll own Know you’ll never be alone Chorus: My baby you Are the reason I could fly And 'cause of you I don’t have to wonder why Baby you There’s no more just getting by You’re the reason I feel so alive. Though these words I sing are true They still fail to capture you As mere words can only do How do I explain that smile? And how it turns my world around Keeping my feet on the ground Repeat Chorus I will soothe you if you fall I’l be right there if you call You’re my greatest love of all Chorus you are the reason I could fly and 'cause of you I don't have to wonder why My baby you there's no more just getting by 'cause you're the reason I feel so alive Arianna I feel so alive

Dah seminggu dia ke Shanghai...this time rasa lama sangat dia ke sana. Maklumlah nak uruskan enam anak2 walaupun tak susah tapi bila dia tak der teramatlah rasanya sunyi.. YM sahajalah jadi penghubung kami. Atlast terpaksalah beli satu lagi modem sebab nak contact dengan dia.. So everyday..dapatlah bersua muka di alam maya ni..and he said stock makan dah habis...kerja belum start lagi...maybe tomorrow startlah kerja depa.... Miss u..and take care...luv u alwiz....

Dah lama aku tak kuar buat assigment. Asyik terperuk kat office sambil menyiapkan artikel. Entah macam mana terasa rindu benar nak jumpa Ben. Bila call dia kata ada satu assigment kat Midvalley. Tanpa banyak bicara aku kata nak ikut..dah lama k lin tak cari story.. So nak jadi cerita aku awal-awal lagi dah cakap dengan boss nak kuar. Kekadang boss ni tak faham dia tanya perlukah aku keluar. Then aku jawab perlulah sebab aku nak cari contact. Tepat jam 1 petang aku kuar. Sanggup tahan teksi semata-mata nak gi assigment dan jumpa kengkawan. Aku pun sampai ler kat Midvalley. Orang kat situ jangan disebut. Meremut macam semut. Ramai nyer makhluk. Tu belum lagi cuti sekolah. Aku pun lalu la kat tengah centre court dia. Mak aih...cantiknya setting dia.. Rupanya depa nak launch movie Alice in wonderland. Nice set up. So beautiful. Aku pun ambil la satu dua pic then sent to my staff saying what a luvely set up. Suggest them to come..coz semuanya muda-muda lagi. Then aku pun jenguk menjenguk la...